Growing up A Sailor Moon Sekkushiaru Roman-meaning...it's a Hentai story that MEANS something. Rating-H, for Hentai By: Psychokittensenshi611-email, katprincess82@hotmial.com It's alright to tell me What you think about me I won't try to argue Or hold it against you I know that you're leaving You must have your reasons The season is calling Your pictures are falling Down The steps that I retrace The sad look on your face The timing instructor Did you hear he fucked her A day late a buck short I'm writing the report I'm losing and failing When I move I'm flailing Now And it's happened once again I'll turn to a friend Someone that understands And sees to the master plan But everybody's gone And I've been here for too long To make it on my own Well I guess this is growing up Well I guess this is growing up Well maybe I'll see you At a movie, sneak preview You'll show up and walk by On the arm of that guy And I'll smile and you'll wave We'll pretend it's ok The charade it won't last When he's gone I won't come back And it'll happen once again You'll turn to a friend Someone that understands And sees to the master plan But everybody's gone And you've been there for too long To face this on your own Well I guess this is growing up Well I guess this is growing up Well I guess this is growing up Well I guess this is growing up Well I guess this is growing up - Blink 182 ChibiUSA woke up in Hotaru's arms. Her best friend and lover...her one and only. She smiled, and watched her lover sleep. The light breathing made only tiny sounds, and she loved watching. ChibiUSA remembered, when they were just friends. She remembered the way she felt when Hotaru would comfort her in her arms, and how the motion was one of only friendly love. But that was quite different now. When she was in Hotaru's arms, they were usually in the midst of making love...or at least, about to make love. She smiled in remembrance of the night before. Hotaru was so beautiful...so amazing. She really loved her...and wanted to tell the world. But she couldn't. They were only fifteen...not old enough to even marry. ChibiUSA also wanted to go to the United States first...she had always wanted to visit there. And now, with it being summer, she had the chance. And she wanted Hotaru to go with her. Would she go? She hoped so. With her all of small pink heart, ChibiUSA hoped that Hotaru would go with her to America. It would be the best vacation she would ever have...but only if Hotaru would come with her. Hotaru woke up to ChibiUSA watching her. "Hi Chibi-chan." She said softly, and stretched out. She looked around the room, and realized it was night. "You woke me up when I could sleep?" "I'm sorry, Taru-chan." ChibiUSA smiled. "You look so beautiful when you sleep." "Mm...thank you. You look so beautiful when you're naked." Chibi blushed. Hotaru rolled over on top of her lover and kissed her. "If it's still night...then we still have time..." "Of course." ChibiUSA kissed Hotaru back. She wrapped her arms around Hotaru's waist, holding her closer. Hotaru held Chibi's face in-between her two hands, kissing her lover fiercely. "Chibi-chan..." She whispered breathlessly. "I love you." "I love you to, Taru-chan." They kissed again, and Hotaru descended on her lover with a fierce need. She kissed down Chibi's neck, and reached her breasts quickly. Sneaking a look at Chibi first, she kissed one of those small breasts and licked the pink rosebud nipple that matched her hair. While Hotaru was doing this, one of her tiny hands snaked down Chibi's stomach to the junction of her thighs. With one quick movement, she was at the sweet entrance to Chibi's most secret cave. She massaged around it gently, and brushed her fingertips around the lips. "Hotaru!" ChibiUSA yelled out. She arched her hips and back upwards, offering herself to Hotaru. Hotaru would not decline this offer. She gently slid one of her fingers inside of ChibiUSA, keeping in mind how sensitive this area was. She did this just as she began to suck Chibi's breast, and ChibiUSA yelled out. She slid her fingers in and out of ChibiUSA, feeling Chibi's legs wrap around her own. Chibi's hips were bucking, and her movements increased. Hotaru switched to the other breast, repeating the process and delighting in her lover's moans. Chibi realized, with a slight nagging in the back of her mind, that she was not doing anything to please Hotaru. She slid down farther, just so that she could get at Hotaru's breasts. And that is what she did. Taking her arms from Hotaru's waist, she reached them up to caress her breasts. She rubbed her palms over the nipples, feeling them respond to her touch. Hotaru let out a delicious shudder. ChibiUSA pulled Hotaru closer, and licked one of the rosebuds that came toward her mouth. Hotaru moaned, thrusting her fingers inside ChibiUSA harder, even adding a second one. Chibi had to suppress a moan, and sucked Hotaru's breasts gently. She slid her hands along her lover's back, pulling her ever closer and into her mouth. Hotaru let out another deep moan, looking up at the ceiling. Delicious feelings were rushing through the both of them, and she loved every moment of it. All of a sudden, ChibiUSA let out a screech. She bucked uncontrollably, and threw her head back herself. She had herself propped up on her elbows, and her hips were thrusting onto Hotaru's small hand with more force than she knew she had. Sweatbeads glistened in the moonlight streaming in from the open window, and Hotaru gasped at the lovely figure before her. ChibiUSA collapsed back on the bed, breathing hard. "HOTARU..." She sighed. She reached for her lover, and her hands came in contact with two thighs. "Come here, Hotaru..." She said softly, reaching for her lover. She complied, and Hotaru crawled next to her. Chibi had an idea. "No, Hotaru, I want you on top of me." "What?" Hotaru didn't understand. "I have a surprise for you. Just come here..." Chibi pulled Hotaru onto her, and shifted her position. "Just kneel down..." Hotaru complied once again, perplexed. But when ChibiUSA slid down so that her head was in-between Hotaru's legs, she knew what was going to happen. She let out an anxious "oh..." and waited. Chibi let her small tongue snake out, reveling in Hotaru's deep intake of breath. She licked her tongue across her lover's entrance slowly, not daring to move too fast. Hotaru moaned, and squeezed her eyes shut tight. Chibi stuck her tongue inside of her, and Hotaru let out a very loud moan. "Oh Chibi!" She shouted out, not caring about anyone hearing her. She wanted to tell the world about her and ChibiUSA, but would wait until they were BOTH ready for that. At this thought, she felt her lover's hands slide up her thighs slowly...turning her on with anticipation. Chibi's right hand stayed on her thigh, but her left hand snaked upwards towards her flat tummy. She kneaded her stomach slowly and gently, reveling in the feel of tensed muscles. Hotaru was beautiful...so perfect and muscular and...she sighed, and moved her tongue quickly. "CHIBI!" Hotaru cried out, eyes full of love and mischief. She loved it when ChibiUSA did this to her...it was her most favorite thing in the world. And when Chibi did it to her, it was worth the wait. Hotaru knelt above Chibi now, her hands balling up the pillow behind her lover's head with lust. The energy was building up inside of her, and she felt like she could scream out in delicious agony. Her hips bucked, her eyes squeezed shut, her cries increased, and her muscles tensed. Then... Time stopped. It just stopped. She knew what was going to come next, the delicious release of love and lust and... Here it comes... "OoOoOoOHhHhHhH!!" She exclaimed. Her moan was low and deep, surprising both her and her lover. Chibi's movements slowed and then stopped, and Hotaru collapsed above her. Minutes or maybe hours went by, she couldn't tell. All she knew was that she was incredibly happy...and that she loved Chibi will all of her heart. She finally got off of her now squished love, and flopped down beside her on the bed. "Are you alright, Taru?" A small voice emerged from that long throat of hers. "I'm...wonderful." She pulled her close and kissed her. "You're amazing, my Chibi." "I love you, Hotaru." "I love you too, Chibi." And they drifted off into a peaceful sleep. * * * "AMERICA?! YOU WANT TO GO TO AMERICA?!" Hotaru threw up her arms toward the blue summer sky. "Yes, Taru-chan, I do." ChibiUSA was shocked by this reaction in her lover. She knew that Hotaru didn't like Americans that much...after being assaulted by one of the exchange students. But she didn't think she would object so strongly to this offer... "Well you can just go by yourself. I wouldn't DREAM of going there." Hotaru stormed off. ChibiUSA ran after her, dodging crowds, strollers, and couples eating ice cream together in the park. "Taru! Wait!" She ran after her, and finally caught up. She rested a hand on her lover's shoulder, forcing her to stop walking. After taking a few deep breaths, ChibiUSA was ready to begin. "Hotaru...please listen." "I'm listening." Hotaru didn't want to be this way with ChibiUSA, but she was angry. Why AMERICA of all places? That country and it's inhabitants scared Hotaru more than anything else in the world. "I wanted to go with you there...for a vacation. Just the two of us. And, when we came back, I wanted to tell...tell everyone...about us." Chibi's face went red. Hotaru gasped. "You did?" "Yes, Taru-chan." "Oh!" Hotaru gasped again. She was so happy...so incredibly happy she could cry. Finally...everyone would know about the two of them, and no one could come between the love they shared. "Will you go with me then, Taru-chan?" ChibiUSA pulled her best friend and lover close. "Please?" Hotaru looked away, deciding. "Alright, Chibi. I'll go with you. But...I'm really scared to go..." "Don't worry. I'll be with you." She laughed, and soon Hotaru joined in nervously. She hoped Chibi was right...and that nothing would go wrong. * * * "You mean you didn't tell anyone we were going together?" Hotaru was outraged. "But you said you wanted me to come...and now you won't tell a soul that we're going together?!" Hotaru picked up her purse from Chibi's bed. "I can't believe you lied to all of them Chibi!" "I didn't want them to know about us..." Hotaru could have grabbed her. She really could have. "CHIBI! You're telling me that you didn't even tell them we're going to America together...and that you're just going to come out easily when we come back? Oh, but you wouldn't dream of even hinting at it before. Let's just surprise everyone. I don't understand you, ChibiUSA!" "Taru-chan, it's not easy to spring this news on them. I don't want them to know I'm gay!" Chibi had spit the words out, not thinking. Now she regretted them, and wished she hadn't spoken at all. "Gay?! Is that it?! GAY?! Oh, so it doesn't matter that we're in love at all. That doesn't mean anything to you. If I was a man, would it be easier to tell everyone about us?!" She got up so that she was eye level with ChibiUSA. "Well...yeah, it would be easier if you were a man." Chibi agreed. She did a mental head slap afterwards, wishing yet again that she had shut up. "Oh, grow up Chibi-chan. Grow up. I'm tired of hiding, I'm tired of waiting for you. I'm tired of sitting around, wasting my time with you because you're afraid. We're in LOVE, ChibiUSA. Does that mean nothing? We're in LOVE. And still, you don't tell anyone. Not even Diana. But now, you want me to go somewhere I REALLY don't want to go with the promise that you'll tell everyone later. If it's so hard for you to tell your friends that we're just going on a trip together, how hard will it be to admit we're in love?" Chibi didn't have an answer to that. She stepped around her bed and looked out her window, her back away from her lover. "Chibi-chan, I love you. But I refuse to sit around and listen to promises that will only be broken." Chibi heard her walk to the door. "Call me when you grow up." The door slammed just as Chibi's first tear fell. * * * Diana hopped onto her friend's bed, purring. ChibiUSA had not moved from that bed for days, she would just sit there and cry. Diana knew about the fight she had with Hotaru, but didn't know it had been that serious... Diana nudged her friend with her small furry head. She purred louder out of concern, and laid against her. What was wrong with her? She had never seen Chibi like this, ever. Hotaru and Chibi had been best friends for over three years now. They spent the night with each other almost every night, they would stay up into the wee hours of the morning discussing things that the little cat was foreign to. She knew that Chibi and Hotaru were closer than they let on in public...they talked about love and said they loved each other a lot. The little cat would be underneath her friend's bed, and then she would hear it. "I love you, Chibi-chan." "I love you too, Taru-chan." On and on that would go, and she would hear moans and sighs and noises she couldn't place. She hadn't known what to make of it, and her innocent cat ears didn't know what it was. She had thought, though, that they could possibly be... No, she shook her head. Not the two of them, they're just best friends. Something nagged at her little kitty brain, but she pushed it aside. They couldn't be IN love...with each other...could they? She hopped off of Chibi's bed and ran out of the house. She would have to ask her mother, Luna. * * * Hotaru sat on her bed, crying her eyes out. Should she have been so hard on her ChibiUSA? She didn't even know if she could call her that anymore...her Chibi. Was that gone forever now? She didn't know. She balled up the sheets on her bed in her frustration as the tears tumbled down, salty beads that would hang on her chin before dropping onto her already tear-stained pillow. "Hotaru!" She heard a voice calling her. She recognized it almost immediately, and wiped her tears away. "Yes Luna?" "May I come in?" Hotaru got up to answer her door, and the little black cat walked inside. She watched her friend as Hotaru sat down once again upon the bed, and walked up next to her on it. "Hotaru...is something wrong?" Luna asked gently. "No, I'm fine." Hotaru lied. She didn't want to tell everyone why she was crying...not if Chibi wasn't ready. She realized, with a pang to her heart, that she didn't want to hurt Chibi. No, she didn't. "Taru-chan, something IS wrong with you. Chibi hasn't gone out of her room for days now, and you seem to be crying all of the time. Now, I realize you had a fight, but I didn't know it was this serious. And, Diana seems to suspect..." She stopped herself before she carried on. She didn't want to address the issue just yet. Also, what if they WEREN'T lovers? That would be a horrible embarrassment... "We just had a really bad fight, that's all." Hotaru played with her now torn up Kleenex. "Don't lie to me, Hotaru. I recognize the look in your eyes. I want to know what's going on, before the both of you get any more depressed." Luna's voice was stern, and she wished she didn't have to be this way. But she wasn't going to let ChibiUSA and Hotaru cry for the rest of the summer. Hotaru began to sob again. "Chibi...Chibi didn't want anyone to know yet. I can't...I won't...break my promise to her." "Then I'll just have to ask Chibi." Luna walked out of the room, leaving Hotaru alone once again. * * * "Luna! I told you, nothing's wrong with me. I just had a fight with my best friend and it upsets me. Now please, leave me alone!" Chibi yelled at her friend. Luna grew angry at this, and wished she weren't just a little cat. It would be more helpful if she could just grab ChibiUSA and shake her until she talked. But that wouldn't work right now, would it? Luna walked on all fours until she was right in front of Serena's future daughter. She knew that this was her princess, and she should be treated with respect. But that thought was far away from her now. "Chibi-chan, listen to me. Hotaru is sitting in her room, crying as well. She told me she couldn't tell me what was going on because she promised you she wouldn't. Now, either you tell me, or you lose her forever." Chibi gulped. Is this what Hotaru meant? Growing up? She didn't know. If it was, growing up sucked. But she did know that she loved Hotaru, and that they both needed each other more than ever. "Alright, Luna. I'll tell you." She swallowed hard again. "But you have to promise not to tell anyone else. I'm...I'm not sure if I'm ready for anyone to know yet..." "Alright, ChibiUSA. I promise." Luna nodded her little head and sat down, waiting to hear her friend's tale. "Well, it all started in May. I was spending the night at her house, like I usually did on the weekends. And...and I began to feel strangely about her that day. I didn't know why...but I did. And, in the morning, I accidentally rolled over on her. I woke up and I was on top of her, and I tried to pull away, and we ended up all tangled up on the floor. It was really embarrassing...but it was something more." She sighed and looked away from Luna. "Go on..." "That...that day, we both realized that we...loved each other, and not just as friends." Luna almost gasped. She had suspected it...along with Diana, after seeing the way the two looked at each other. But she hadn't KNOWN it. "Luna, I love her. I'm in love with her. But I didn't know how to tell anyone...I was scared. I still am. But I'm not as scared of the world finding out, I'm scared of losing her. Oh Luna, please, help me!" ChibiUSA began to cry again. She hunched over, still maintaining her sitting position on her bed, but was crying into her hands and knees. Luna watched, trying to offer some comfort...but didn't know how to. "Chibi-chan...I can't just help you with this. You really hurt her. If you want her back, you have to tell everyone yourself. Go to Usagi and Mamoru, tell them. Tell the Senshi, tell everyone. Then and only then will Hotaru come back to you." Luna got up and hopped off the bed. "And you shouldn't be so afraid to tell everyone. We love you, ChibiUSA, and we wouldn't say or do anything to hurt you or the person you love. Whoever that may be." Luna walked silently out of the room. * * * ChibiUSA stood in front of the airline gate, waiting for boarding to start. She had her ticket with her and was ready to head off to America...but the thought that Hotaru wouldn't be joining her foreshadowed the exciting journey. She almost began to cry, but stopped herself. She had told everyone. She told Usagi...she told Mamoru, and they had listened with caring expressions. They told her they loved her, and that they supported her no matter what. The same with everyone else...Ami, Rei, Makoto, Minako, Setsuna, Michiru, Haruka, Artimis, Diana...everyone. They had all told her the same thing...that they loved her and supported to. But she didn't have the guts to tell Hotaru what she had done. She had hoped...briefly...that Hotaru would come running back to her, all open arms and tears and happiness shining in her yes...if she just told everyone. That was what Hotaru wanted, right? For everyone to know about the two of them. But obviously that wasn't the only thing. She hadn't seen Hotaru, or talked to her, or even heard about her for three weeks now...three weeks after she confessed her deepest secret. "Rows 14 through 24 may now enter the plane." A voice over an intercom informed her. She looked down at her ticket once more, but she didn't need to. Row 15, seat B. Great...the middle. She'd be squished between two fat sweaty business men for sure. The thought almost made her laugh. She didn't know if she could still laugh...if Hotaru wasn't there to laugh along with her. ChibiUSA looked down at the floor as the line inched forward. But, some noise, or maybe it was the tugging at her heart, made her look up. She searched the airport's boarding area, and nothing seemed to have changed since the last time she had looked. But...she felt something in her soul, telling her to keep looking. Her heart swelled. Tears of happiness came to her eyes. "CHIBI!!! WAIT FOR ME!!!" Hotaru was running through the crowds, a ticket and carry-on bag in hand. She was crying tears of happiness herself, and her arms were open. Chibi could have run into them. "HOTARU!!!!" She screamed back. She didn't care about the stares anymore. She really didn't. Hotaru ran into her lovers arms, and Chibi picked her up off of the ground. She spun her lover around, making the people around her back up in fear of being hit. When she did put Hotaru down, both girls were smiling and laughing and crying. "Oh Chibi...I love you!" Hotaru threw her arms around ChibiUSA's neck. "I love you too, Hotaru." Chibi kissed her then, right in the airport. No more panic, no more cares...all she knew was that she loved Hotaru, and they were going to America together. Who cares what the future will bring...all I know is that I love you, Hotaru. I guess this is growing up. * * * WHEW!! Damn!! That took meeh a long ass time. Ok...my poor hands are so sore from typing! oh well. I hereby dedicate this story to the Amazoness Duo (or Quartet...whatever) and their story, "Aishiteru, ChibiUSA". I used some pieces from that story...(a.k.a. where Chibi confesses to Luna what happened with her and Hotaru)...and I would like to thank them for the wonderful fics they made of the two of them! I hope I did it justice. Oh...by the way, in order to have the entire song on one page, I didn't do the entire legal thing. So here I go... Ok. This is a Sekkushiaru Roman...one that I made up, but these characters are not mine. They are the products of Naoko Takeuchi and company...so I didn't make them, I'm just living and loving through them. I hope you enjoyed! Oh, and just so everyone knows...if it seems like there's a continuing pattern in my fics...that's because there IS! I use songs as my inspiration, as well as people. This is one of the few fics that I didn't dedicate to my friends...I have moved to another state and seriously miss them...but I do have a lot of time on my hands. So if you were wondering...yes, each story I create will begin with pieces from a song. I would like to thank all of the wonderful Hentai and Sekkushiaru Roman writers out there...you have all done your part to make the world of Sailor Moon a little more wonderful. Thank you all! ~Psychokittensenshi611~ eeh-mail...katprincess82@hotmail.com